New Song – Spaceman

Kinda silly, but it’s the first new song I’ve written in a while, and I needed to remember how to use my recording equipment. Though it’s goofy, I think there is a serious undertone about my own inherent insecurities and struggles to connect with other people.

Spaceman

I think it sounds pretty okay for a demo, but it will be much better when the DSO does it.

Bonus Tracks

Ok, so I wrote a new song the other day. None of these are it. I hope to record a demo of it this week. But while looking through my files, I came across three old demos of songs that I never did with any band or released on any solo album. Previously unreleased Hornbuck-alia!

This first one has lyrics by my old songwriting partner George Mostoller. He often sends me lyrics, and sometimes I set them to music. He also wrote the songs “Subway” and “Lip-Smackin’ Woman,” which I sometimes perform.

“Another Time” — recorded 12/2/2004.

\”Another Time\” by M. David Hornbuckle

The next two are from a revue that Marie and I planned to write in 2002 called “Domination: the Musical.” I think these are the only two we got around to writing, and I’m pretty sure Marie wrote the lyrics for both of these.

“It’s Nice” and “Why Do I Do What I Do?” — recorded August 2002.

\”It\’s Nice\” from Domination: the Musical

\”Why Do I Do I Do What I Do?\” from Domination: the Musical

Uzi’s Open

I attended Amy Uzi’s open mic last night at Tribes Gallery in the East Village (every Thursday at 8–cover charge is by donation). It was an interesting mix of the usual art star open mic crowd and some poets, some of whom were actually pretty good. I read a new short story. I took this video on my blackberry.

Then I had time leftover, so I sat at the piano and fumbled my way through one of my songs. If you listen carefully, you can hear Brer Brian playing guitar and singing from the audience.

Excuses

I have no progress to report, either emotionally or literarily. The heat wave hasn’t helped.

I feel like I’m always making excuses for why I’m not writing. I have too much other work to do. It’s too cold. It’s too hot. I’ll be able to concentrate once the stress of moving is over. Every excuse feels real at the time.

Truth is, when I look at my work on paper, I’m so hypercritical of myself that I get discouraged. That seems to be the main problem. To get anything done, I have to get beyond that. Anything that’s weak can be fixed later. The important thing is to get it done! Damn it!

Really, it’s like I’m cursed.

Anyway. I’m in the middle of a musical project. I was asked to write a theme song for a children’s traffic safety program using the catch phrase, “STOP (See The Other People).” I asked George to write some lyrics, which he did, and I set it to music easily after tweaking the words only slightly. I need to record it this weekend.

Meanwhile, I can’t stop thinking about sex. I have all these stories about sex, and when I start editing them, I get all worked up.

Artist and Artisan, part 2

I sent parts of Wednesday’s entry out to a few friends to spark discussion, and I got some interesting responses. Mainly, that not every artist is a good artist, which is an obvious point, and so artistry vs. artisanship is a gradient that ebbs and flows over an individual’s career. That’s certainly true.

The tension I felt as I listened to this conversation while waiting to see Lionel Richie was that, if I volunteered the information that I was a “musician” or “songwriter” or even a fan of “music,” I still didn’t think that I would in any way have much in common with these people. Or that I would be able to communicate the relationship of what I find interesting about music with what they find interesting about music. Or the difference between what I find interesting about music and what I am passionate about with regard to music. And I thought that was strange as well as kind of frustrating.

We all agreed, basically, that these “mainstream music fans” that exist out in the world are baffling.

I’m an Artist and You’re an Artisan

I had an odd adventure yesterday that caused me to reflect on many things. My mother’s birthday is in a couple of weeks, and I happened to hear that Lionel Richie was signing copies of his new greatest hits CD. It’s just the kind of somewhat cheesy pop that seems to appeal to her, and a signed copy of the CD would be a funny gift. So I went down to 66th Street and stood in line in the freezing cold for two hours to get it, and ultimately I was successful in my mission.

While I was standing in line, I was surrounded by four men who were obviously real Lionel Richie fans. They started talking about the Commodores in relation to various funk groups and Motown acts, and at first I thought they were specialists with an interest in American R&B of the 60s and 70s. But I soon realized that they were all rabid followers of virtually any kind of mainstream music, and they had detailed knowledge about all kinds of “artists” from P Diddy to Led Zeppelin to Prince to Kiss to Jay Z. It was really remarkable to follow their ecstatic discussion, but I barely said a word the whole time. Honestly, I didn’t know a lot of the people they talked about. When they hit on something I could agree with, I would pipe in an acknowledgement, but mostly I just nodded my head and kept my opinions to myself.

It made me think about the interesting juxtaposition of “artist” and “artisan” that exists in popular music, the blurring of which I suspect is a foregone conclusion of market capitalism. This is a dichotomy that I think about frequently, and I’ve imbedded some of my more cynical thoughts on the idea into one of my books. It can be summarized as follows.

The artisan creates things with intended use. This sometimes involves impressive skill and creativity, and these four men that I met were keen observers of artisanship in the music industry, which can include any or all aspects of composition, arrangement, production, mastery of an instrument, dancing ability, packaging, and marketing. There may be other elements that come into play, but off the top of my head, I think this sums up 99% of the industry.

Artists, on the other hand, create things that are likely to have no use. They create because they are compelled to create, and they don’t have anything to gain from it. Both the industry and consumers of the industry frequently and willingly blur the lines between these two. Many become impassioned about artisanship, and dupe themselves into believing its art. To make things more confusing, once in a great while, a true artist stumbles into the music industry and is able to combine the two roles effectively. Also, like most apparent dichotomies, I don’t know that there’s always a hard line that you can draw between the two.

However, an inevitable cycle of entropy occurs in the music industry as a direct result of market capitalism. Artists, who don’t necessarily have the polish to gain mass appeal, are increasingly ignored by the industry in favor of safer investments. More and more the artisan skills that require the most energetic study — composition, arrangement and musicianship — are also ignored in favor packaging and production, which are easier. That’s why every generation says they don’t write songs like they used to. They really don’t. And those that do can’t get a break because the industry doesn’t need them to sell records.

What would be a more ideal situation? I don’t know. I’ve been trying to turn it around theoretically in my mind. As things stand, there are already an overwhelming number of potential artists. So a big part of the puzzle is how to separate the best interests of the corporate music industry from the best interests of the artists and also the best interests of the potential music audience. If you remove the idea of profit, how do you decide who gets to make “being an artist” their life’s work and get them the materials and freedom they need to do their work?

Maybe the best we can hope for is that good artists somehow latch onto a strong underground current just below the radar of the industry, and at times we seem to have that. But in many ways an alternative or “indie” market is a specialized microcosm of the industry as a whole and shares many of the problems.

Even in my most extreme fantasy of a regenerated, totally socialized entertainment system, it’s hard to imagine exactly how that would improve the end result, unless of course, I alone am allowed to be the supreme dictator of taste. It’s really not so much a matter of changing the public’s taste as it’s a matter of calling things what they really are.

Merzbow and Other Noise

I saw Merzbow do a free show at an art gallery in Soho Friday night. He was sitting cross-legged behind a table with two iMacs and a small mixer. You would think he was meditating, except that every few seconds he would reach out and adjust something on one of the laptops. The experience was deafening, over an hour of relentless caustic sound. You get the feeling that it’s almost like a dare, to make it through the show without covering your ears. A lot of people left before it was over.

But it was more than that. A lot of the sounds were extremely evocative – sometimes cartoonish like the sounds of movie monsters, enormous industrial machines, nightmarish screams, metallic clanks, helicopters and guns. It was like a Philip Glass composition made out of movie sound effects instead of pure tones.

One of my music professors in college would always say, traditional music is all tension and release, tension and release. With this music the tension builds for a very long time before you get release, and you don’t get full release until the concert is over. I would start to internalize the sounds that repeated in a pattern, and then I would be jarred by a sound that came out of nowhere. Then the patterned sound would change slightly, and it would draw my attention to another area for a few moments. Then suddenly it would switch to an entirely different pattern, a different mood. At times, though, it felt entirely like I was going insane, and I felt myself on the edge of the most crippling depression. Fortunately, the concert ended before the darkness really took root.

I just spoke to Weingarten. He saw Merzbow at a different concert on Saturday night and reported a very similar experience to what I felt. It really drove us both deep inside ourselves in a way that was ultimately not very pretty.

It’s been many years since I was making that kind of music, and I never did it particularly well. But there is something very satisfying about manipulating loud, booming sound over a period of time. I remember feeling very lucid in those days. The album that I made with the noise band Smack Doris was interesting in some ways, and in fact, I got more notoriety for that than I had with any of my pop bands.

Form and Function

I have found myself lately fascinated with the epistolary form. As a form of narrative it has few pretenses, being a natural evolution of the use of language to relay information from one person to another when oral language is not an option or isn’t as convenient. Subconsciously, I think my approach to keeping this journal is informed by that form as well. It could well be interpreted as a letter to a person I know well but seldom see, a way of communicating and preserving my daily mundane thoughts.

I also like the dialogue format for similar reasons – a simple transcription of oral transaction. Again, it’s a very natural way to use language as a method of preserving a moment. I wonder then, why I don’t incorporate these forms more into my own fiction. Instead, I tend more toward methods that attempt to contrive narrative without much structure, like trying to make buildings out of wind.

This question has been a tension for as long as I have had any ambition to be a serious writer and one of the reasons that I virtually stopped writing for a few years. There is a sense of alchemy about making a story come to life from the void of an empty page, which I think adds to the desire to remove any semblance of “form” from the story. Break it down to the essential symbols that create the characters, the setting and the action. But when you do that, you have before you the virtually impossible task of making something recognizable from things that are unfamiliar.

There is an aspect of this same attempted alchemy in some of the music I was composing a few years ago, things I was recording at home with primitive instruments and substandard recording equipment. I was trying to create soundscapes using only what I happened to have lying around the house. I had ambient microphones placed around a room, plugged into various effects – delay loops, pitch shifters, distortion pedals. I now have the means to make this experiment a lot more interesting.